I ABSOLUTELY LOVE & ADORE THE ELDERLY

Well as you know I am 23 years old & proud.

Some days I am an older mature woman living in a 23 year old body.

Other days I am …well maybe not the typical 23 year old but the typical 23 year old ME..

I may be the spoil, bratty, immature 23 year old that fusses when she doesn’t get her own way. *hides face* MAYBE.. I said Maybe…

JUST MAYBE!  DAMMIT!

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However as I get older by the days, weeks and months the situations that would allow the little brat to rile up is somewhat under control.

Or maybe, just maybe I now  interact with people who know how to tame her. *hides face*

We give thanks for those people. (L)(O)(L)

I can be very serious… I can also be miserable… but don’t you dare call me miserable lol

I will simply deny it… like I usually do.

” WHAT!? No! I not miserable, why would you even say that about me?”

Really and truly I know the exact reason for being called miserable, you know like a drunk person would never admit that they are drunk.

I tweeted one day, Sunday, February 12, 2017 (since you were wondering lol) that if I had a choice between two tables with one table for persons my age group and the other being a table for senior citizens. With no hesitation and an easy pick at that, I am definitely  selecting the senior citizen table with a lot of enthusiasm!

Like HELLO STORIES AND ENTERTAINMENT!

YEARS OF EXPERIENCES, ADVENTURES, SUCCESSES AND FAILURES.

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Seriously have you ever sat down, chat with and listen to someone who is like WAYYY more than your age? Like hello they have been living on earth for so long, they went through it all. The highs, the lows, the valleys,the hills, sunny days, rainy days.

They went through it all.

I am so done with thinking that “dem did Bahn big”  many times I thought my Grandma didn’t get certain things but looking back I am sure she totally got it and just played dumb…smart.

I Like to hear historical stories, series of events and adventures  that occurred when my parents didn’t even know of each others existence, when they didn’t know whether or not they liked each other enough to even have sex, well.. whether or not my Mom was sure..I am sure my Dad was totally ready and waiting DWL ( IDK IDK IDK my inner Shonda Rhimes is showing, I might be just making up stories just to add a little spice to my blog)..or even much less to  think about conceiving my brother ..yea I like to hear about stories from way back.

The world is evolving drastically, the people are evolving.. two year olds now know how to go on YouTube and select what they want to watch…If you are 23 years old or older at two you were NOT able to do that but that’s the technology aspect of it.

On the other hand life kinda remains the same….kinda…. not much has really changed if you really sit and think about it. The same life problems we face today, did not just surface today they have been around for years.

Speaking to someone WAY OLDER THAN MYSELF  is like an adventure back in time, I ask them so many questions about their life, about what they were doing when they were 23, (BTW that is absolutely my favourite question to ask, asking them what they were doing at my current age) and they are just always so willing, they never shy away, they enjoy talking you know, the elderly like to chat (CHAT NUFF LIKE ME), man they can chat (LIKE ME), or maybe it is JUST ME CHATTING THEM OUT *Hides face*… well I can tell you this the stories they have are always entertaining… like ALWAYS and with the elderly I am NEVER shy to ask questions.

I love the elderly because they are like babies, I can still rub their back, hold their hands, pat their head, show them love and everybody deserves love no matter your age or your appearance. They are big babies, babies with experiences and adventures.

THEY ARE BABIES WITH AN IMAGINATION OF REALITY.. I was trying to sound cool and I really don’t know how imagination of reality sounds but I typed it and….well…I am going to leave it there.

I love the elderly because they are charming, warm and nice. They know how to share kind words. They can tell how genuine you are and they sometimes can predict the future.

When an elderly person say they can see me doing great things in the future I hold it extremely close to my heart and use it as a reminder.

“Kris you will do great things in the future”

I love the elderly because they are encouraging, they are always encouraging my generation to stay in school, get an education, work hard, be discipline, have manners.

Why do you think  they tell us that?

To be nice?

NO… they are teaching us a lesson because they know that’s an essential and important formula to grasped in life.

I love the elderly because they are funny, they say some hilarious things that you would not expect to come out of their mouth… That make you pause…. DIE OF LAUGHTER ….and then say

“Wow… that’s pretty hilarious.”

I love the elderly because they are the walking and living life lessons (literally). If you need advice seek it from an elderly person who has been through that phase in life.

TRUST ME ON THAT ONE

I love the elderly simply because they are an open book, uncensored, not trying to make anything look pretty .

Those people are my favourite kind of people.

There are persons who are my age and older are open like that but also some of the people I meet in my age group are all trying to impress. Literally… they only try to go to certain events or involve in certain things to impress. It annoys me and I can smell a fake from a mile. I can sense when someone is trying to be someone that they are not…simply to impress…

Actually typing that allowed me to think about another blog idea in my head….hmmmm…

(WAIT ON IT) 

I love the elderly because they are so humble, so content and no worries. They don’t care about the internet and phones, they don’t care about their outfit, they are just pretty happy to have life because honestly elderly folkes kinda know that…. well….that their time is near…. they know…you know…..

My Grandma jokes all the time about death none of us (the family) likes it but we accept it that she jokes about death she say things like.

” Please uno nuh mek me funeral long and drawn out or me will get up and tell uno fi hurry up”

My mother, her daughter does not find those little comments funny but I laugh because my grandma is okay with dying and I have to love and admire her for that. I love her and I treat her like a baby.

She is my baby!

My grandma only worry about what program she wants to watch and how heavy the piece of chicken breast is that she has to lift with her fork or her tea cup and the density of the liquid in it.

She worked hard for our family now we work for her.

I won’t be bias… Some elderly persons are the total opposite of sugar and spice

DEM VERY BITTAH..!

Have you wondering if life was that horrible…( no it is not, life is what you make it)

IN LIFE WE ALL HAVE A CHOICE …AND BACK IN THEIR YOUNG DAYS (THEY CHOOSE TO BE BITTER AND CAME OUT BITTER AND WILL BE BITTER FOREVER

when I sense negative energy from an elderly person…

Well I do what I normally do to other persons…..

Ignore them.

At the end of it all those bitter and sour elderly persons will never ever let me stop showing love to the sweet elderly babies.

NEVER!

IF YOU CAN’T FIND ME…

CATCH ME AT THE SENIOR CITIZEN TABLE DRINKING TEA AND LAUGHING AT FUNNY STORIES.

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MORNING ROUTINES ARE ESSENTIAL IN ATTAINING YOUR GREATEST POTENTIAL

February 2017.

I have came to  realize how important a morning routine is.

How essential it is.

How necessary is it.

How it makes you a more productive person during the day.

IT HAS BEEN PROVEN BY ME! lol

I realized this because during my fitness journey, I got up EVERY. SINGLE. MORNING and did the same thing over and over…

EVERY. SINGLE. MORNING

I got up, I put on working out clothes, took pics for snap chat , do my workout routine and took more pics, I then made breakfast or some fruit juice smoothie and whatever came after

(This was for the early snapchat days, when it was more personal and not much persons were on it. However I no longer use Snapchat or Facebook because as you know I am doing the entire less social media thing)

With the exception of  Instagram and Twitter  of course, they are my babies, I enjoy it. they are the medium by which I share my positive thoughts.

Anyways so back to the point of this blog. YES ..my FITNESS JOURNEY MORNING ROUTINE. 

I did this EVERY. SINGLE. MORNING

I got up, I put on working out clothes, took pics for snap chat , do my workout routine and took more pics, I then made breakfast or some fruit juice smoothie and whatever came after.

I did this EVERY. SINGLE. MORNING

I got up, I put on working out clothes, took pics for snap chat , do my workout routine and took more pics, I then made breakfast or some fruit juice smoothie and whatever came after.

You got my point?

This was during summer so you know I had time, but I could have chose to not do anything and just be “comfortable” like what many persons are doing but I decided to push my limits, because…well… I don’t have any.

AND I CONTINUED MY ROUTINE WHEN LIFE GOT BUSY!

YES I HAD TO MAKE A FEW TWEAKS HERE AND THERE BUT I CONTINUED MY JOURNEY.

“Guh deh good gyal”

I would compliment myself for continuing this journey, making time and not having any excuses.

YOU DON’T HAVE LIMITS EITHER. 

DO NOT THINK LIMITS. DON’T YOU DARE!

If you told me two years ago that I would be pushing  a few abs in 2017 I would have laughed and said

“you love joke”  .. I am sure.

BACK TO THE MAIN POINT!

Well…you know…I started losing my buzz… you can say….I got bored.

I accomplished this goal…So what’s next Kris ?

I felt like I needed a NEW CHALLENGE a NEW BUZZ

I literally did not even feel like working out anymore because I did this for a long time…of course I might be exaggerating on the  EVERY. SINGLE. MORNING

I also want you to know that.. I had  down days, a few KFC days, a few don’t want to get out  of bed today days, a few alcohol consumption weekends…but that was me being human…but when I am KRIS-ANN I am pretty unstoppable.

As I said I DON’T THINK LIMITS 

But MAJORITY OF THE DAYS

I did it… EVERY. SINGLE. MORNING

you thought my baby abs just appeared because the universe felt like giving it to me?

NAH FAM…I worked my ass off…

Literally.

So…

So I reflected and said

Kris why don’t you have the drive to work out anymore?

and then like a switch in my head that flicks  ON I said

Maybe you just need to try something different..

I thought.

Hmmmm…

I always wanted to do yoga….

and I learned that..for me to be doing the same thing over and over

MADE ME SUCCESSFUL ONCE SO WHY NOT IMPLEMENT IT AGAIN!

It allowed me to accomplish my fitness goal.

I got up, I put on working out clothes, took pics for snap chat , do my workout routine and took more pics, I then made breakfast or some fruit juice smoothie and whatever came after.

EVERY. SINGLE. MORNING

So I decided that for 2017

WHY NOT CONTINUE THAT MORNING ROUTINE..but add a TWIST

BRILLIANT KRIS!

I THOUGHT! 

So here goes.

Instead of getting up at 7am, I now get up at 5:45am and out of the bed by 6:00am

EVERY. SINGLE. MORNING ( including weekends because this is new to me NO DAY OFFS ALLOWED)

  1. PRAYER IS KEY. I give thanks, I thank the supreme being for allowing me to see another day.
  2. YOUTUBE…I start playing a motivational video or uplifiting music…I listen to the words keenly (uplifitng music goes from soca, reggae and r&b )
  3. I go to the bathroom and sit on the best seat in the house…(DWL I had second thoughts about putting this here but…“fearless”)
  4. I go to the kitchen and heat water for my green tea
  5. I am a neat freak so before I can concentrate and FOCUS the way I want to I HAVE TO SPREAD MY BED AND PUT EVERYTHING WHERE IT BELONGS. HAVE.TO. LIKE THAT IS A NECESSITY FOR ME.
  6. Make my GREEN Tea NO SUGAR, bun fyah pon SUGAR inna tea!
  7. Then I do like 10-15 minutes of YOGA and/or Muscle building exercises (such a squats, sit-ups, pushups, walls sits just to name a FEW) while sipping my tea.
  8. I then read something, anything, a few quotes, a page from a book, but it has to be positive some way or form.
  9. I then shower, get dress, Pray again and leave.

MY ALARM SET UP IS THIS

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I do this

EVERY. SINGLE. MORNING.

I am pretty new at this and have been doing it for approximately 3 weeks now.

EVERY. SINGLE. MORNING 

Of course I have down days when I get all human and what not lol  

a few Popeyes and Pizzahut days here and there (yea KFC chicken is too oily for me now lol like I never thought I would see the day where I say that, only thing I get from KFC is a ZINGER), a few don’t want to get out  of bed today days, a few alcohol consumption weekends…but that is me being human…but when I decide to be KRIS-ANN I am pretty GREAT AND MISERABLE. lol

So in the next two years (2019) when you see that my leg can go around my neck you cant say I didn’t warn you!

I am very flexible to date, my husband WILL love me a little extra for that. lol

WHY I CHOSE YOGA?

Well …for one I wanted something NEW and it challenges me because I have to focus on the formation of positions, breathing techniques and balance ALL AT ONCE!

While usually I am use to a more upbeat routine ..

But that’s where I practice my discipline.. I just do it. I stop thinking about what i have to do and just DO.

I am slowly but surely becoming a DOER 

I do Yoga because I want to improve my flexibility, strength, my mantra, be good to my mind, body and soul.

Trust me it is a very relaxing exercise and don’t take it for a joke it can be extremely intense! It just had me fooled.

But most importantly I have started YOGA so approximately in the next two years I can place my legs around my neck.

Very important.

I hope you can come up with a morning routine to suit you and your goals so your mood and energy level can be maximized for your day to day activities.

TRUST ME IT HELPS! 

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#SELFISH but still #SELFLESS

WARNING!!! THIS BLOG CONTAIN EXPLETIVES! 

When you hear the word selfishness you think negativity..

Right? 

Well in my eyes I look at being selfish as both negative and positive.

To the world you must be selfless (YES! YOU MUST!), you must give and you must do good.

But… 

How can you do so much good in this world when YOU are NOT RIGHT with YOU ? 

How..?

After making the world happy, you go home and you are sad, confused… all of a sudden the negative thoughts accumulates in your head and  eats you alive and THEN you don’t know what to think  anymore… so you just go with the “flow”

Are you a dead fish ?

No because you would not be reading this blog.

Why is that? 

Well my advice to my readers (the few I have…love you guys) is that sometimes you need to disconnect from the world because I believe that you should be 150% RIGHT WITH YOURSELF so you can  DISTRIBUTE percentages to the world. Why be at 50% and give the World 80%… that will make you exhausted!!!

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When you know within yourself it does not make you happy.. but whatever you do it anyway. ” I can’t bother” “Meh .. it’s w.e” “it is what it is?” “Same shit, different day”

NO DON’T TELL YOURSELF THAT!

Wait…Why are you even tolerating the same shit everyday?

It is a different day I WONT ALLOW THE SAME SHIT TO HAPPEN THAT HAPPENED YESTERDAY. I think that’s a better way to make an approach

I am 23 years of age and it took me 23 years to discover that it is OKAY to not be OKAY and it is OKAY to be selfish. When I use to get sad is like the world end “LAWD JESUS WHY ME?” today nah FUCK THAT! If me sad me just tough it out and I don’t seek comfort from anyone, I hold it out cause that’s how I go learn..I DEAL WITH IT ALONE as best as I can if i need help …I seek it but If I can tough it out alone that’t an awesome feeling for me and I get excited LIKE I SURVIVED!

Then I would extend a compliment to myself  by saying

” GUH DEH GOOD GYAL…RAEEEE, LAWWWD, WOIII “

That’s just MY NEW challenge trying to dealing with it alone.

Cause morewhile and mi aguh be honest  morewhile mi sad and mi deven know why GOD KNOW (LOL) typing that amde me laugh 

Not saying you should not have someone to talk to . No I would never… but to get a different result sometimes you have to take a different approach.

And it is okay that yesterday was an awesome day and today is not so awesome…it is okay

LIFE IS NOT A STRAIGHT PATH IT CONSISTS OF HILLS AND VALLEYS

morewhile a some rassclatt steep hill and valley too enuh. (gwan laugh but a nuh joke ting)

To put yourself first, to work on you for a change is necessary to accomplishing your GOALS both long-term and short-term.

Like many others a lot of times I am placed in a situation whether it is work, school or my personal life where the decision I make is not necessary in the favor of someone and you might change it just to put their feelings first because you know it makes this person, coworker or classmate happy.

AND TRUST ME I HAVE DONE THAT A NUMBER OF TIMES AND THAT’S OKAY! THAT’S MORE THAN OKAY BECAUSE I BELIEVE YOU SHOULD BE SELFLESS …

…but to what extent?  that’s the question .. and you should know that answer because you know you.

How can I help someone to reach their full potential If I don’t exercise my full potential? 

There are times when you MUST put yourself first because if you live all your life putting everyone first for the rest of your life… I am no MS. CLEO but I think you will be sad for the rest of your life and you will always wonder…

What if I had actually took the time out to just focus on me? 

What if I actually did what I said I was going to do?

What if….

Well my readers know me as the one to always take on a self improvement challenge.

Yes I have faced many life challenges throughout my 23 years of living but I didn’t die.

So my new challenge of course I will blog about what I have decided to do and what I have been doing to improve my happiness, my positive thoughts

A MAJOR ONE to stop overthinking ..listen I can turn a dot in a circle having  you calculating 2*π*r  and have you wondering how did I (KKW) even get here.

AND I AM SERIOUS (that is the extent of my overthinking)

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Laugh.. you should have laughed because I mix that with mathematics and it was funny!!!!

Well I laughed. lol

and a very important one MY MIND, To give my all in everything I do (work, school, personal life) MY MIND HAS TO BE WRIGHT (lol) But RIGHT works too. 🙂

#SELFISH but still #SELFLESS

  1. I am careful to who I speak to, not everyone deserves my time or a reply.
  2. I Read more … Hey Daddy finally !! 23 years later… ( I know you are proud)
  3. I exercise … it is not always an intense workout sometimes I do like 10 push-ups and some sit-ups and call it a day. But I did something didn’t I ?
  4. Drink green tea ( every single morning, it is my caffeine)
  5. I use my phone less believe it or not lol
  6. Spend less time on Social Media
  7. Spend more time reading blogs and having an idea of how persons on their self improvement journey are coping
  8. I ensure I am on time with everything I do (school, work, meetings, events) punctuality is important
  9. I cook
  10. I write down my goals for the day and I continuously check the list to be reminded of what I need to do,I might not accomplish everything on the list but I get some things done
  11. I have a list of inexpensive items I want to purchase each month. #SPOILYOURSELF
  12. I go out for entertainment now and then
  13. I listen/watch to motivational videos
  14. I communicate with people who are always positive and uplifitng
  15. I believe Energy and vibe does not lie
  16. I believe the universe speaks to me by allowing me to see what I see and hear what I hear especially when it refers to how I feel.
  17. At the end of 2017 I MUST have 12 books, yes be free to buy me a book I will love you for it. lol
  18. I get sad and how I deal…  is that I watch something funny, read something funny or go listen to some dancehall or soca songs and wine up my body. Yes, literally I wine up my body, get my heart racing and say Alright ready again. #LETSGO
  19. I believe in Team Work, I use to always want to do it ALL I learn that it is o…k… to  Sss…looo….oooo….w…. Down.  It is okay to ASK FOR HELP at work, at school and personal life
  20. I say NO. Without reason, when I use to say no I always thought I was obligated to give a reason. I am not. Well unless it’s Money we don’t say no to money without reason lol
  21. FUCK FEAR. I use to kill myself with what ifs and buts because of fear.
  22. FUCK FEAR
  23. FUCK FEAR
  24. FUCK FEAR
  25. FUCK COMFORT.. always have room for growth and improvement.
  26. FUCK COMFORT
  27. FUCK COMFORT
  28. FUCK COMFORT
  29. FUCK COMFORT
  30. I ALWAYS SMILE AND I ALWAYS SHOW KINDNESS

I think being selfish at times makes you a better selfless person.

One thing I always say to myself is that I look for long term and sometimes certain environment and situations are toxic. If you know it makes you weak, angry, unhappy WALK AWAY, LEAVE, CUT , OUTTA HERE, DEUCES, BYE 

How I know I  love what I do ?

I AM EXCITED, LIKE I GET THIS JOY ..I can’t explain the feeling but it is an amazing one. 

  1. TO WAKE UP SO I CAN SEE THE NEXT CHAPTER OF THE BOOK
  2. I CAN TRY THIS WORKOUT
  3. I GET TO TALK TO THIS PERSON
  4. I GET TO SEE THIS PERSON
  5. I GET TO ACCOMPLISH SOME GOALS
  6. I GET TO EXERCISE MY CREATIVITY
  7. I GET TO MAKE SOME MONEY
  8. I GET TO ENCOURAGE SOMEONE
  9. I MADE SOMEONE SMILE
  10. I INSPIRED SOMEONE

That’s how you know what is for you is for you when you have this over joyed, great, amazing, phenomenal, fantastic .. I could go on…feeling ALL THE TIME.

If you don’t have that over joy feeling to wake up and say YES!

Then…

Simple.

C H A N G E

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BEING JAMAICAN

Jamaican living in Jamaica

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I think Jamaica is one of the most interesting places to live… funny how I would say this and I have never lived anywhere else.

Oh well..

The culture here is really funny to me. I am going to list a few things that I find entertaining :

 Jamaican Taxis

Taking Jamaican taxi has got to be the most entertaining thing in life. The passengers talking about their personal life such as  who scamming who, they get real deep in their sex life, women and men not afraid to admit that they are giving their partners BUN (cheating) . You also have the religious and political talkers that I ignore.

Then you have the actual taxi men who knows how to entertain their passengers either by his driving, his music, by having Barry G on the radio and commentating  or just by what he is saying.

The taxi is usually like 3 in the front, including the driver of course! and  10 thousand in the back and the driver is still going to say  “ONE AND READY”

If you sit in the front seat it is more and likely on arrival to your destination you and the driver will be best friends at this point.

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    Jamaican Parties and Parking

In Jamaica if a party is being held in a community or a particular area, best believe my Jamaican people are going to maximize on this opportunity to hustle some money.

They will turn the road side and an empty lot into a parking space and CHARGE. They not even charging some small money that an actual parking lot going to charge  (which is usually $200.00) DEM A CHARGE LIKE $700.00 especially when foreigners are involved; and  you better pay that money if you want your vehicle to remain secured.

Jamaican Vendors 

Then you have the vendors.

What you want ?

 Credit?

Them have it!

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Them have it!

Cigarette? WEED?

Them have it!

Anything you want, them have it!

If them nuh have it them ago find it sell you!

I honestly sit and I observe my Jamaican people with pleasure. We are one set of marketers, we maximize on our resources and different opportunities to make some money. I believe as a country if we had the resources and money to invest in these people for their marketing ideas we would be better of as an island

Trust me on that one.

Smoking Weed (Marijuana)

Weed has been decriminalized, which means that we wont get charge for having small amounts of marijuana.

Jamaica has been sterotyped for our weed smoking and I can’t blame foreigners for asking the sterotypical question

“You smoke weed?”

The media portrays our weed smoking and I don’t think  we should be ashamed of it, because it is our culture, it is our people, it is us. Now get this straight not every Jamaican smokes weed. If you think every Jamaican smokes weed that is where you are WRONG!

But if I should give it a ration I would say for every ten (10) Jamaicans one (1) of them smokes marijuana. Jamaica is the type of country where you can smoke weed in front of the police and they don’t trouble you.

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With that being said we move on….

Jamaican Police Officers

Lawd havis mercy a weh mi fi start ya now?

They are one set of unruly individuals. I don’t know if unruly is even suitable…they just might be worst than unruly. Sad but true…

” One bad apple spoil the whole bunch” meaning not all police officers are corrupt, but the one corrupt officer make them all look bad.

The corrupt officers will stop a civilian and ask ” left or Right” now this left and right concept really means

“you wah mi write (right) a ticket?” or “you a go leff (left) some money”

enough about them!

Jamaican Street Side Food

MI SEH NTN NUH NICE SUH! 

Please bare in mind that this food might not be the cleanest food but we nuh care we LOVE street side food. As long as it taste GOOD and it CHEAP.

Of course you must know our JERK CHICKEN  aka PAN CHICKEN, ROAST YAM AND SALTFISH and you cannot forget the WOOD FYA GOAT and WHITE RICE (my favourite).

Then the traditional fried chicken, rice and peas wehevery cook shop will have!

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 Jamaican Music 

Dancehall and Reggae – Best music in the WORLD  hands down!

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The Beaches

Go google ” Jamaican Beaches” – that is exactly how it is, beautiful and calm

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Then of course you have THE PEOPLE. OUR LANGUAGE, OUR LIFESTYLE, OUR CULTURE.

I LOVE IT ALL!

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I am Human

Live life to the best of your ability. Avoid the negativity that is eating you alive.

The struggles I face, persons don’t think they are struggles but because I always laugh and always smiling I don’t know how to convince someone that I am not having a good day, not just a good day but I have not been having a good day for weeks now.

But I can’t…

I don’t know how to explain to someone after being the perky individual that I was that I really didn’t have a good week. And the sad part is no one would ever believe me. -_-

I sometimes think humans that I am close to, forget that I am actually human and can feel what they feel or experience what they experience . I kinda want to be away from all of that, I want people to know that I am NOT PERFECT and I definitely DO NOT HAVE A PERFECT LIFE.

If persons knew how often I cried, or how often I get sad they would  be shocked..

I don’t know why… but they would

I get questions like.. ” do you ever get sad?” or ” Do you ever get miserable?”

uhmm… yes..

The difference between myself and a lot of persons is that I do not allow it to get the best of me, I don’t allow it for me to NOT smile or for me to have a nasty attitude towards people. I am one of the nicest persons I know… I think if everyone had my attitude and well mannered attributes the World would be a better place. This is not self praise or this is not me being cocky but this is me being sure of myself and knowing the difference between negativity and positivity  and the way to handle both.

I must be doing a good job for someone to think my life is perfect ( see i look on that in a positive light), I must be doing something right..WRIGHT?

But I want for persons to see my imperfections because I am proud of who I am. I cry, I get sad, I think my life won’t work out, I have moments where this is the end of the world, I get upset, I get confused, I don’t always smile, I have sad faces, I eat junk food,  sometimes I am too lazy to get out of bed, I can spend the entire day in bed just crying, I have gone an entire day without brushing my teeth, I don’t always want to exercise.

YOU KNOW JUST HUMAN BEING STUFF..

I am Kris-Ann Wright and I am perfectly imperfect human being just trying to water her own grass and is too busy to notice anyone else’s.

 

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Before 2015 Ends.

December 5th 2015

@ 3:47 p.m

Hey, just here, missed me guys? lol

Okay here goes..

I am in my room just laying on my bed contemplating about life, wondering where life is going to lead me in a few years and also where is have brought me. Like I am literally just laying down on the right side of my bed with a bunch of school papers,pens, calculator, books, ipad and highlighters on the left side.

Can you picture me now?

Then I looked on my laptop and literally said “hey boo” and of course I know I have been so distant when it came to blogging, so I am like why not type my thoughts.

Sorry for not posting blogs but school and life has me so busy.

Anyways…

Although December is such a bitter sweet month for me because for one it its the time of the year where I can eat curry goat, oxtail and drink sorrel for one whole week or  maybe even 2 weeks straight! Courtesy of mi GRANNY! However is it also the time of the year that I lost the first man I ever loved, for some time it made me dark but for some reason God allowed me to grow into someone who really enjoys bettering herself and bettering others by having a positive impact on them.

Recently my favourite thing to say is

” Positive heart, mind, soul and body” with taking deep breaths in and out.

My year (2015) has been good so far not knocking no board just yet, would not want to jinx myself but so far…2015 has been good to me. I have been doing good in school, exercising and making life enjoyable even though I have had my fair shares of bad days where the tears seem to have zero chills and just run down my cheeks and I just let them until I build up enough courage to tell myself “get your shxt together”. I have met some beautiful, courageous and loving individuals also. One in particular and actually it was one of those friendships that started and honestly I thought it would eventually end and we would be nothing but strangers with a memory. But then God was like            ” gotch ya my child”  lol. Even up to this day I am still surprised we are so close! My new friend has made a great impact on my life and I honestly have a lot of respect for them ( I don’t even think they know the levels…lol) Anyone who teaches me, reasons with me and  has my best interest at heart ( or at least I think so) is a friend I would want in my life forever until God says when.

How did I get here…..( Years Before 2015)

They say you might know someone for 2 years and feel as if you know nothing about them and you can know someone for 2 months and feel as if you know everything, this is debatable. Over the years I have lost so many “friends” because of lies.. males and females. I have had so many lies told about me, so many that I don’t even care about the lies to my face about other situations but when someone goes as far to MAKE UP AN ENTIRE SERIES ABOUT YOUR LIFE, that hurts, the type of hurt that makes your heart beat extremely fast, the type of hurt where you feel your heart beating in your throat, the type of hurt that brings tears to your eyes, the type of hurt that makes you go without eating for days and I could go on…

In my first year of University, I got so skinny because I went on social media (facebook, twitter and instagram) EVERYDAY just to see what a particular set of girls had to say about me and of course who can forget about the BBM statuses! And my favourite one the BBM conversations where they would literally curse me out  because of lies that were told about me, I was being cursed out for something I had no idea about. Like literally I would ask God        ” What did I do to deserve this?”

Even though It was only a set of people against me I felt as if it was the entire world and with all the support I still felt down, nothing could uplift me.

My fav quote was when a girl said

” you neck should a get slash like goat” or ” she is so manly” or ” she think she cute?” and of course I could go on..

L.M.A.O  Good times!!

THIS IS NOT EVEN HALF OF THE STORY

ONE fine day I got up, MAD with the world and went on a mission deleted everybody from twitter, facebook and the gram and blocked who was to be blocked. I went on a mission to stop talking to everybody even my ONE friend that had my back. The best day was when I had a Samsung and it stopped working and for an entire year and I had no interest in getting a phone of my own but I had access to one, until I became a brand ambassador, I had a little peanut phone and then I upgraded to a digicel android.

Now my phone is my world,it is my life now along with instagram, twitter and newbie on the block snapchat lol

In my life a lot of things have occurred, a series of unfortunate events really and I DID NOT stoop down to those girls level. I ignored all the hateful comments, tweets and statuses I did not allow them to define who I am, I simply got the courage one day just to not to care about anything and just live my life. Also I was the centre of their world they ate, sleep, breath my name. I had to wonder if they were getting paid to stalk my social media pages then posting negative remarks.

I am extremely grateful and proud of myself  of the way I had handled my situation. I never once wish bad for anyone or schemed a plan to take revenge. I just simply ignored them and lived. This is when my fitness journey started, I use to run EVERY.SINGLE.MORNING to clear my mind and start my day on a positive note. I no longer run but I do work out and try to eat healthy. But because of so many lies that told about me, to me when someone lie it not such a big deal and I don’t want to have that mentality but for some reason I do. I honestly think it is in human nature to lie and it is!…I lie but if I know it is going ruin someone’s life (pretty extreme lol) or have a negative impact on them I try my best to avoid that situation and tell the truth. If I lie and it should back fire I ensure that I am the only one in front of the fan when the shxt hits it.

Lies I tell are usually related to my location and school work lol

So now we are here in 2015 and I want to thank those girls for doing what they did, because honestly I am who I am because of what I went thru for the first 2 years of my University life. And funny enough… nah lets not go in to that but you see  that thing call Karma, I believe in it.

Thanks for Reading.

I wont promise but I will try to make blog posts for the holidays. I love when I get comments from the handful of readers that I have.

Happy Holidays.

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Challenging Myself

There are too many countless times I have TRIED to challenge myself, telling myself that I am going get this thing done because I want it to be done. Just like everybody else I start this challenge off all excited, determined and just READY for action! For the first three days I am on a roll…

“Nobody can stop me, I got this!!!”  I would usually say to myself feeling proud and motivated.

Then look day four…

“where did my motivation and energy go?”

“okay I will continue tomorrow” the famous line I use on myself to feel better

And then suddenly only a couple days left until the month ends

” OKAY NEXT MONTH FOR SURE!” and then this never ending cycle continues.

OH LOOK new year comes, same things are said and actions cycled.

and then you are there wondering what happened to the young lady that said nothing can get in her way? you know the driven and motivated one. I want to be her 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 4 weeks a month, 12 months a year, 365 days annually. Yes I want to be her. 

Why is it so hard to keep a promise to yourself, yet you try extremely hard to keep promises to family and friends? Well maybe because you just know how being disappointed feels when the closest people make promises to you and let you down and you just really would not want them to feel that way.

Yet …you… yourself allow YOU to feel that way and the same feeling you are protecting others from is the same feeling you cause upon yourself.

Life is so strange and funny.

Well today, March 11, 2015, I was thinking that I need to challenge myself with anything possible, formulate a plan and stick to it and Keep the promise to myself, just like how I keep promises to other individuals.

I am writing this BLOG as a reminder that I need to put myself first in many situations, likewise, you should too.

Also when I finally do challenge myself and stick to whatever it is I can look back and read this and say, BIG UP TO MY 21 YEAR OLD SELF! she the real MVP. 🙂

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